I’m sick

I got sick in June. 

I went to the doctor and waited for over a month for a referral to a specialist. 

Now, three months later, I still do not know what ails me and I am just now getting an ultrasound on Friday. 

That’s the whole Summer being sick. 

Last Summer, my husband was struck again with a mystery illness (for the second time, same symptoms). He was sick for over a month, with no resolve or diagnosis. He lost 25 pounds the first two weeks, could hold nothing down, severe stomach cramps. One week after he stopped vomiting, he deployed. 

That’s the whole Summer being sick. 

Did I mention that Summertime is my favorite time of year? 

We make great plans, travel, spend much needed time together as a family. 

Yet, the last two Summers, we have been robbed. 

I hate the enemy. 

And now in the middle of my sickness, the enemy strikes again. 

Unexpected deployment. 

And here we go. 

I am worn out waiting for your rescue, but I have put my hope in your word“. 

-Psalms 119:81

My heart is broken. 

For he heals the brokenhearted, binding up their wounds“.

-Psalms 147:3

I find myself questioning.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord!

-Jeremiah 29:11

I am stricken with grief. 

Now let your unfailing love comfort me, just as you promised me, your servant. Surround me with your tender mercies so I may live, for your instructions are my delight“.

-Psalms 119:76-77

I’m scared.

And the very hairs on your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are more valuable to God than a whole flock of sparrows

Luke 12:7

I’m lost. 

He finds me. 

I stand on His word. 

Though the sorrow may last for the night, joy comes in the morning“.

-Psalms 30:5

O Lord my God, I cried to you for help, and you restored my health“. 

-Psalms 30:2

Praise the Lord, for he has shown me the wonders of his unfailing love“.

-Psalms 31:21

So, I will be strong and courageous, because my hope is in the Lord! -Psalms 31:24

And I will give thanks for all he has done for us! 

Amen. 

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